I was dead a few moments ago, Fired by flames that fumed by ego. I am stripped of all my illness, And spared of my earthly heaviness. Lost senses have made me feel, The light that is now so real. I am getting drawn to a zone, Every emotion feels like home. The journey is […]
2017 — a year that changed my life. Things that I thought would last forever came to an end this year. My discoveries of being betrayed hurt every bone of my body till I became numb. I was filled with anger and rage. Wanted to destroy them all. My family & close friends stood by […]
Last week I was watching my regular reality TV show when I started feeling a change in my mood. I was beginning to relate one of the characters on TV with my late wife. Then out of nowhere a flood of emotions, mostly sadness and anger, ensued. This is not the first time that I […]
Pre-court tension: 8 am What do you wear when you go to court? I wondered standing in front of the mirror. Two years of separation and the @#$%% I married was about to appear in court for the first hearing of my divorce case. He had received summons! The initial euphoria of having thus saved […]
Less than six months into my marriage I found myself at a lawyer’s office asking about options to end the marriage. If I said it was the hardest thing I have ever done it wouldn’t be true. There was a voice inside that prodded me on. A voice that had been subdued for a long […]
This year started off with a bang. In January 2016, I broke both my ankle bones. And that wasn’t even the worst part of the damned year. Physical pain I came to learn, bad as it may seem, doesn’t hold a candle to the emotional pain of a fractured marriage. My chronically ill marriage was […]
“Somedays I wish I could go back in life. Not to change anything but to feel a few things twice” Pregnancy is one such magical experience in a woman’s life. I would give anything to feel again for the first time those happy hormones that make you ecstatic forgetting all the realities. After all it […]
I had married my soul-mate. Ours was a love story that had prevailed against all odds. It took me seven years and two childbirths to realize that I’d been kidding myself. Taking my husband down from the pedestal I’d placed him on, had been like giving myself an amputation, keeping the anesthesia on hold. Life […]
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Today, as I dwell back on my past, my relationship has taught me the most essential lessons in my life – By ignoring me and my child completely, my ex taught me to be independent. I was grown up in an affluent family and as the younger kid, I was too often over protected by […]
I was afraid if I can manage life after my loss... But knowing all of you I gained the belief that I can survive. I used to cry for hours together though I knew he is not going to come back and crying will not change anything better. Sharing my depression with this group and the way you handled me gave the confidence that I have ppl on the same boat to help me and motivate me when I am down.... Now that I know I have the liberty to crib and feel low... I am not at all feeling low . If I had not known this group, I would have pretended to be happy in weekends and spent my time crying on weekdays. I would have entered depression without my knowledge.... Now I am sure that even if I want to go into depression I cannot . Thanks for all your support. Thanks for bringing me into this group
Phoenix family has made a huge impact on life! M only saying this because, I met a friend of mine recently. We hadn't talked since 8 years! She said that she had seen a drastic change in me. Accordingly, I was an extremely shy woman the last time we met! But now, I am a whole new person!! I am more confident, determined and focused on what I want in life, not only that, I can manage and keep things well balanced which I could not have 8 years ago... For this drastic change in me, phoenix family is one of the main reasons. So thanks a lot for playing a great role in my life and making me what I am today!